|i cant give up.
||[Jan. 24th, 2005|10:35 am]
They call me L'fezee B'shizzle
|||||JoJo-"baby all i want is you"||]|
been awhile, ehh? i dont feel like going really into things rite now, so im going to be brief...
•ok, lets start of with my home life....
everything is going good with my parents. dad says i can trade in my car in a month, so we'll see how that goes. supposly supposed to be moving out in June with Jenna. hopefully everything works out. I love my parents, there so supportive and care alot. i dont know where id be with out them. there my number one fans. they keep me inline. dad left this morning for out door ed for a week. my brother scott is still living with us. i miss being the only child living at home, but i also love the company. my brother kevin totalled his car. he know has a transam. hes loves it and hes happy and thats awesum. im just glad that hes ok. he hydroplaned into a pole. moms still lovin her new trailblazer. it sux that i hardly see her nemore cause out scheldules kinda conflict. my parents are stressin out about the upstairs bathroom. the toliet over flowed all over the floor over nite 2 nites ago and leaked downstairs threw the lite ficture into the laundry room. they were beyond pissed casue supposly it was becuase of a tampon, im not on my period so who knows. so the toliet isnt fixed yet. then our shower was leakin, so my dad trying to be the "handyman", tried fixing it but ended up breaking it instead. so the only thing that works in my bathroom is the sink. so all of us have to take showers in my parents room. so thursday my grandpa is coming up to fix my bathroom cuz hes good with stuff like that. so thats that.
•now, my job.....
dolce is going awesum. i honestly can say i love my job. i actually like going to work. i love the poeple i work with. its just an awesum place. plus the discounts i get there are insane. its just awesum. i can really see my self progressing and movin up with this job. we had a salon meeting this morning at 8. we just talked about customer service, went over sum things to make everything run smoother and they gave out sum awards. it was fun stuff. there taking all the client coordinators out for dinner at the "melting pot" on sunday for doing so well in giftcard sales during christmas. and the hole salon is having a skateland party at the end of febuary. i cant wait, its gunna be fun.
i dont know where we are going with this. doesnt seem like wer moving foward at all. it seems like im putting so much into this and ur just sitting there watching me. i cant seem to do anything right. this isnt how it should be. im so lost, i have no idea what to do nemore. my emotions are all over the place. we both know how to make eachother happy, so why do we continue just making eachother feel like shit. god, im so confussed.
i love this girl to death. shes my baby girl. i will do anything for her. shes the best friend a girl can have. shes always there for me.......she met me up for lunch at my work cause i told her i needed to talk. i dont think she knows how much that meant to me. that talk was awesum. exactly what i needed to get threw the day. thank you hunnie. i love you. i hate that ur hurting right now. but hang in there babe, everything will work out. but we have eachother now and thats all we need =) xoxo.
so much for being brief...
just when you think everythings going to be perfect again, it blows up in my face. is this what lifes all about?